Thursday, May 21, 2026

Health Care As It Should Be

When I went to vote in the PA primary yesterday, I was wearing my Harvard t-shirt. I have one or more t-shirt for every institution that I’ve been associated with, and this one came up in the rotation. Anyway, the nice lady behind the desk asked if I’d been there, and I said yes, and she said her granddaughter had just been admitted to the dental school. So I congratulated her and said that I had fond memories of the dental school.

 

I didn’t go into the reason why I had such memories. There was the serious business of being # 44 to vote that day—it was around 2 p.m., so pathetic turnout is the name of the game. But the memories of the dental school are interwoven with memories of the health services offered to students and faculty at Harvard, at least back in the last millennium: I don’t know what they’re like nowadays.

 

Three experiences there.

 

One day I was sitting at my desk intent on taking notes to prepare to write a paper, and I carelessly inserted the back end of a Bic pen into my ear. Being a lucky kind of guy, I immediately felt the little rubber cap that seals the end come out and nestle itself lovingly into my ear canal. I went to the health services. The receptionist did not mock me. The nurse who carefully removed the cap did not mock me. I walked out chagrined but un-mocked.

 

A while later a physical exam suggested I had a heart murmur. The health services sent me to a specialist facility where the good doctors and technicians spent some two or three hours trying one test and then another and another trying to figure out what was going on with the ol’ ticker. It turned out that nothing was going on, and happily I trotted back home.

 

And then came the dental experience. I went to have my teeth checked and cleaned. The dentist looked at the results of both procedures and said, “Your teeth are fine, but your gums have got to go.” What a joker! And so the health services provided me with a periodontist who considered my mouth and decided that the dentist had been right. He, the periodontist, was affiliated with the dental school, and it happened that he had a student who was about to finish her training—a nice Iranian woman, as it turned out. The student would do the surgery, which took place over the course of a month or so, one segment of the mouth at a time while the periodontist supervised. I was the student’s final project. Everything worked out fine.

 

So from blush-causing idiocy to oral surgery, the health services were there to help.

 

And you know how much I paid for all of that? Nothing. Zero. Zilch.

 

That’s the way health services should function across the country, for everyone.

Monday, May 11, 2026

Memory vs. Journals

I came across some old—some more than half a century old, in fact—journals that I’d kept, off and on, since back in college days. Also some prose and “poems” from HS days, starting back in 10th grade, but those are far too embarrassing even to read.

 

Anyway, the journals are proof positive that memory isn’t a reliable adjunct of being human.

 

I mean, the general picture that I have in memory, mostly that I was* at best a callow youth and at worst a self-absorbed asshole, is pretty accurate. It’s the details that on the one hand flesh out that sense of self and on the other hand illustrate that what I thought, memorially speaking, to have been the case was not the case at all. F’rinstace, important friendships that I thought had disappeared by sophomore year had indeed diminished but had not disappeared as I remember them to have done. Nonetheless there are a lot of friendships lost and never found again—although I have to say that FB has helped me to reconnect with people who otherwise would have been lost to time.

 

Some things I just do not remember at all at all. At some point in the spring of 1973 I went to Philly to see the Grateful Dead in concert. What I say about that experience is neat—the best concert ever and so on. But I have not a single memory trace of the event, nor of the trip to Philly nor of what I did besides go see the Dead. Similarly I write of getting drunk, or near drunk, several times, but my recollection is that I really did not drink a great deal. My preference by far was for vaporous sorts of mood-altering substances. That is borne out in the journals for sure, but I guess alcohol played some role as well.

 

And to top it all off, as I sometimes do for gits and shiggles, I asked Word’s copilot AI to structure and refine this, and the damned app tells me that “Copilot can’t generate high-quality content here.”

 

I choose to take that as a compliment to my scintillating prose.


*Here's hoping the tense is correct.